...I wouldn't call after midnight to say goodnight when I realized at 10:52 that he was going to stay the night with her. Heck, if I was really smart, I probably wouldn't call at all.
(I don't know how I know. But that's when the psychic alarm went off.)
Friday, October 19, 2007
If I Was Smarter...
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But it's so hard. So very, very hard...
I used to get horny whenever my ex was getting laid. It is weird. She was very sharing after we split up. Eventually I got a clue and asked them both not to talk to me anymore. No, I really don't want to remain friends. It's enough that I get to see you together at work every day.
Your last post got me wondering. Is that closet you are hiding in paneled with pine? Are you hoping Power Girl will uncover you and make you come out? ;)
As much love as an anonymous stranger can give,
Steve
I agree with Steve... Sometimes you just have to cut all the strings. It doesn't have to be forever, but just until you heal some. I had to do that once with someone. It hurt like hell, but then after a little bit, after some deep thinking and massive amounts of journaling, it got better. It wasn't the same as it once was, but it was okay. And sometimes, okay is good enough.
I wish i was smarter too.........x
Sometimes, you have to sever. Completely. The trick is knowing when, and how, with dignity. I always know exactly when that moment is.
In hindsight ...
Another vote for severance (sadly, without the pay!). Easier said than done, of course, but perhaps a scintilla simpler when your readers vote en masse to push you in that direction.
Sometimes I still feel like I'm severing the ties from a woman that goes back to college. Oh damn. Just what you needed to hear about now, right?
fex - yeah, and you would know :) Thanks for being part of the understanding sisterhood...
Steve - yeah, it sucks to have to be around them afterwards - and I'm going to have to. Right now I'm trying to move past my feelings of vindictiveness...
I love Power Girl, and we have made out for non-personal purposes, but nah, not that way :)
Thanks for the love, it's needed and appreciated.
devorah - yeah. And I have to be realistic and also admit that if it wasn't for "oh, my toy got taken away by someone else," I really was nearly done anyway.
flowring jasmine - we're all so damn smart! How do we get into this crap?
cyrano q - yeah, isn't it always 20-20?
denis - welcome back. I don't completely understand, though :)
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